mirror mirror on the wall

I look in the mirror and sometimes wonder who I am really. Underneath all the hair and skin and smiles and moodiness. Am I who I am?? Then I look in the mirror again and wonder why I always fall short of who I am called to be.I'm still finding myself in a way. I know where my final destination is. I don't know how to get there. Many have said that it's the journey that counts right. Heck, even Miley Cyrus sang a song about it. Then how come I wanna know NOW??Ugh I feel as if I'm being torn into two. Between what I'm supposed to do and what I wanna do. Between what I will gain and what I want but can't have.

gaygay

tsktsk gay i tell you gay X)

currently listening to ;

omg *

what's worse ?

some random fish head came and say hi . and PAUSED !

you started the whole hi thing so just create a topic or something .

forgodsake*

Let the pictures do the talking shall we .

click on the picture to get a bigger view :D

Okey . so yahh , this is all i can survive in a lifeless conversation like this .

sorry to dissapoint . HAHA!

p/s : those spaces are akward silences . tsk tsk*

currently listening to;

billionaire ♥

over

well midterm's are officially over :>
and now i have to wait for my results.
thats crap. =/

so yahh :)

fourteen ♥

haha well i'm officially 14 :) YAY WHEEEPIEEE WHOOO AHAHAHA !

got wishes from everybody :D

it was after club meeting in the morning , went to canteen to catch a drink . sat down and suddenly everybody in the canteen started singing the "birthday song". I gotta say i was sorta shock! Ahaha . andandand , cakes ♥

The cake . thankyou farah .

got teddy from mazni nd nabilah , wallet from HER , fluffy from nurinn ... Thanks guys :)

had classes as usual. teman waniey nd the rest during recess . passed by Tinieeeeeeeeee nd deq'a , they're awsome . they were shouting HAPPY BIRTHDAY at the hockey field , haha . you guys are crazy and ILYGSDFM ♥

awsome day , thanks you guys . I LOVE YOU GUYS :)

sweeeeeet :)

volleyball match turned into a dutchball match , teeeheee :D



FULLSTOP.

vanilla twilight ♥

The stars lean down to kiss you
And I lie awake and miss you
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere
Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly
But I'll miss your arms around me
I'll send a postcard to you, dear
Cause I wish you were here

I'll watch the night turn light blue
But it's not the same without you
Because it takes two to whisper quietly
The silence isn't so bad
Till I look at my hands and feel sad
Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly

I'll find repose in new ways
Though I haven't slept in two days
Cause cold nostalgia chills me to the bone
But drenched in vanilla twilight
I'll sit on the front porch all night
Waist deep in thought because when
I think of you

I don't feel so alone
I don't feel so aloneI don't feel so alone

As many times as I blink
I'll think of you tonight
(Tonight, tonight, tonight...)

I'll think of you tonight

When violet eyes get brighter
And heavy wings grow lighter
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again
And I'll forget the world that I knew
But I swear I won't forget you
Oh if my voice could reachback through the past
I'd whisper in your ear:
"Oh darling I wish you were here"

omg omg , ILTSDFM . ♥

omfg*

omg omg , people . i hvn't been updating my poor bloggy here for ages . grr , grr ,
how could you, Joey . thankyou nicki , i'm updating it NOW . -eyerolls- bahahaha , couldn't blame it ALL on me , i mean . when you're locked down in a house which makes no diff staying in a hostel , ergh. it pissed you off big time . and by that , i mean no fone on weekdays . no facebooking on weekdays . ishh , desperate much ?
dealing with nags nags nd more nags . -tearing my face- there's just so much to sayyyyyy , nd just so little time . i will try my best to update more often . teeheee . i'm catching a bus back to ipoh later at 4 . mum's bz , dad's bz . wattodo ? :(
oh ya , i got my new converse , credits for mum who thinks it's gorgeous . bohoo for dad who thinks it's 'china stuff' . sigh . life's gonna go back to usual scadule in ipoh . if you know how being in a jail feels like , then you know how i feel . plus , i did smthg really wrong . nd now i have no freaking idea how to deal with it . i'm on a risky stage of staying as a prefect next year . SIGH . whad's next ? i could barely think .

hometown.

woke up toons early this morning. sigh. after washing-up, went straight nd on9. was actually partly sticked to the computer. aww how i missed my computer :D den den kene marah. fineeeeeee. went downstairs and had b'fast. rushed up and pack-up balik kampong! it wasn't exactly wad i call a SMOOTH-JOURNEY. feel like puking the whole while. suddenly, fone rang. chiu text me. text text text nd text, mak aih credit overload. mampos pegy--' [miera influenced]. after four hours of bumper-to-bumper JAM LIKE MAD, akhirnya reach destination. *phew. after that, hopped onto bed nd z-z-z. got pulled outta bed after a few hours. oh c'mon! sigh. gotta help get ready for dinner. den on9 balik. chat2 with my god-sis on msn. weeeeeeee! miss her so much. hee. crap nd bond mcm mcm then go mandi, nd i'm now on the computer crapping it out, wat so ever to u guys. the end. ! ;)

p/s: found out that today was b-o-r-i-n-g. sigh.

signing out :)

cross-country day.

woke up a lil late this morning, got nagged by my uncle. blah blah blah. pulled a face over it.
-not a morning person- sticked the toothbrush into my mouth thinking... ... omg. omg.
it's cross-country? can't believe i almost forgotten. -blurr- grabbed a cup of milk and a piece of bread. hopped on the car and off we go! owh, how excited i was. ;) okayy, so after the students dilly-dallying 'masuk barisan' *i noe, i noe, it's a prefect thing. -pulling a face-
we went to the hockey field for warm up. andandand, there's one step where you'd like.. hug urself? aww, how adorable. x)) haha.. den suddenly, -outta nowhere- heard someone crying. looked back -curious- saw amira crying.. omg, her eyes were all redish. aww, cheer up!
it's cross-country babe. XD didn't bother to find out what was happening though. -not in a busybody mood- then then, yasmin sneaked into her pocket and wooo.. chocolates. WEEEEE! ^.^ so yeah. after the adorable warm up, -giggles- went over to the starting point.
squeezed like mad. andandand, from the crowd and all i saw peiyee babe! she came back.. waved at her, aww! she's so sweet.. haha! at first, we ran like in ... rows .. haha.

s.u - mierana - me - putri - yas yas - mawar

then later seperated lar, can't run like that lor.. haha. left me and yas yas at the back.. -didn't plan to run anyways- other's were like so.. fired up? LOL. how bout' the whole process? nyehh, too embarancing. hoho. -fast forward- finally owh finally, reached dataran and err.. everyone were blabbing about how painful their legs were., when my legs are not pain also? ugh. ppl and their problem.. hehex. but my stomach was definitely NOT feeling good. -ouch-
yas and i went to grab some water. waited for HER to reach, another bottle for HER. rushed to HER the moment she reached. gave HER the bottle. then she just grabbed it and .. err.. buat xtau? *sigh. whateverrrrr.
Hang with some of the form 1 av gang in the canteen. man. our shoes were so slippery. we were like goofing around about it. goofed all the way outta canteen. -immature XD-
had toons of fun :)

no pictures since i'm not sure if i'm allowed to bring my cam -sad-

*ended my day in school with an icy cold ICE- CREAMMM ♥


Jo.Y here. Signing off.